Sometimes I wish I never had a past relationship. People say it makes you a better person, and yes I may be stronger and more vocal these days, but all it really made me was depressed and more of a bitter person. I didn’t learn anything from it, aside the fact that you can’t trust anyone, even those closest to you. Nothing good came from it. I’m not as optimistic about life as I once was. I have trust issues. I get emotional very easily now. And worst of all it has made me very insecure and paranoid about my current relationship.
It still hurts to this day. I think I’d be a lot happier and a lot better off if that relationship never happened.
But that’s life for you.
Everything happens for a reason and I can’t change what’s already happened. All I can do is accept it and be hopeful about the future.
I just wish I was better at letting go of the past.